And Then.......

Very many days ago.......




She started out in the sun,
thought destiny is not that far!
N even if the day ends she has stars....
to guide her alone journey
N who knows she would get her philosophers stone right in the way;
After all,all she needed was that!
N how can she be denied that?
She has always been so good to every one!

Or so she thought.

Goodness,the sun is setting off so early?
Shudnt it only be the morning?
may be she had the wrong measure of time!

Well,she had stars..
there they are!
See how sparklingly beautiful they are!
she loved them
La la la......

Her favourite song...she hummed.....
Walking,walking and then

DARKNESS

Complete pitchblack darkness
Despairing darkness
it was that night when you cant even dare to breathe
cant even pretend to yourself that you are brave

You suffer,your feety gets strangled and you lost all feelings
Save one

PANIC

Neither she could stop,nor walk...
there was nothing around...
no sign of men,no life;
nothing
And probably then it dawned on her

THERE IS ONLY TWO WAY
Fear or Dare

But this dawning changed nothing.....
She still remained in the hell

Only she joined the vast race of goddamn panicked desparate people!
Whom she had hated and pitied all along!

DUSK OR DAWN?

Hello,


This is my first time blogging ever! I really wonder how to express my weird thoughts...........specially the way they go around these days.


I am 20, a student n...............a dreamer. From my very childhood I did crave for perfection.In case of evrything,be it study or friends or life itself.For a very long time I was practically shielded from this real world and real life.Only when I left my home and went to college and started a hostel life, I encountered it.


What happens when you for the first time come in a very new place? You get startled ,you wonder,you think what is happening around you and what your part is actually..........That precisely happend with me! And its still continuing.........I thought its a fairy world,perfect n happy..........how wrong I was!


I experienced whole lot of things.........there are a hell lot of times when I was racked with sorrow........mad with grief......angry at my foolishness..........and above all afraid that may b this darkness is the only real world and I can never find the sunny bright world.It hurt me to realize how wrong can be my notions about people whom I considered I know best.Pained it me though I never uttered a word........slashed it me though I never broke the deadly silence.......stabbed it me though I nver let them see the bloody wound.


Until I broke down.


























That day I broke my long silence and asked my inner self for help.I knelt down and really wanted someone .........someone who can feel me.And I met my angel.It may sound dramatic but dat actually happened.I could see my anime angel in my heart........she sparkled me with the light of hope.

Very amazing though,but I henceforth realised my life.I still have my yearning dream of living in a perfect world........adorned by smile , innocence and pure love.How would I like to belong there.......................
And yes,I have stopped brooding over matters .

I feared being alone

Until I learned to like myself

I feared faliure

Until I realised that I only fail when I dont try

I feared success

Until I realised that I have to try in order to be happy with myself

I feared pain

Until I learned that it is necessary for growth

I feared change

Until I realised that the most beautiful butterfly have to undergo a metamorphosis before it could fly