Hello,
This is my first time blogging ever! I really wonder how to express my weird thoughts...........specially the way they go around these days.
I am 20, a student n...............a dreamer. From my very childhood I did crave for perfection.In case of evrything,be it study or friends or life itself.For a very long time I was practically shielded from this real world and real life.Only when I left my home and went to college and started a hostel life, I encountered it.
What happens when you for the first time come in a very new place? You get startled ,you wonder,you think what is happening around you and what your part is actually..........That precisely happend with me! And its still continuing.........I thought its a fairy world,perfect n happy..........how wrong I was!
I experienced whole lot of things.........there are a hell lot of times when I was racked with sorrow........mad with grief......angry at my foolishness..........and above all afraid that may b this darkness is the only real world and I can never find the sunny bright world.It hurt me to realize how wrong can be my notions about people whom I considered I know best.Pained it me though I never uttered a word........slashed it me though I never broke the deadly silence.......stabbed it me though I nver let them see the bloody wound.
Until I broke down.
That day I broke my long silence and asked my inner self for help.I knelt down and really wanted someone .........someone who can feel me.And I met my angel.It may sound dramatic but dat actually happened.I could see my anime angel in my heart........she sparkled me with the light of hope.
Very amazing though,but I henceforth realised my life.I still have my yearning dream of living in a perfect world........adorned by smile , innocence and pure love.How would I like to belong there.......................
And yes,I have stopped brooding over matters .
I feared being alone
Until I learned to like myself
I feared faliure
Until I realised that I only fail when I dont try
I feared success
Until I realised that I have to try in order to be happy with myself
I feared pain
Until I learned that it is necessary for growth
I feared change
Until I realised that the most beautiful butterfly have to undergo a metamorphosis before it could fly
